Saturday, October 9, 2010

why i like football and chelsea!!

i remembered the first tournament when i was in primary school, between inter-"club" tournament form by my school, i form a team name "newcastle" and that was my first tournament which i lost totally. Before that, i wasn't playing soccer regularly but that was the time i discovered my talent inside which is leadership in team and have a good striking and driblling. During tournament, i was 10 years old and its a knock-out tournament. we lost 3-1. I scored goal by dribbling alone from midfield. What i really remember is everybody cheering for me eventough my team is not good enough to win. Since that day, my passion in football continued and im determined to develop my talent. i play regularly at my grandmother lawn (about 1/5 soccer field size) which is big enough for us to played and we also played at my school which is not far from my grandmother home. Im among the oldest of my friends and family who join playing. One of them actually play for our "negeri" level now. From that until i join secondary school, my skill developed and i must say im the most prolific goal scorer. i can dribble while running fast, being a leader for a team, i oftenly run back to defensive line to help, control midfield whenever possible and also had a tremendous stamina. Although im skinny and thin, my speciality is my fast feet and im good at finishing. Despite having all that skills, i didn't pursue it to its very best. i just play football for fun. even when i was form 3 in seconday school, school player couldn't beat my defence skill. sometimes i play as a left-back....and i must say, i did a good job. but in striking force, when im partnering with someone who had a skill of passing with me, i became a prolific player at scoring. despite being a player, i also do coaching and manage team, for once we enter inter-village tournament and came out 2nd place just with penalty shoot-out decision. i love to do some coaching, doing dribbling session, have a long shot training, play passing and stamina development. eventough the tournament is the first tournament we join, we shows a good performance. we have a playmaker which is very good at dribbling and passing, and i must say we have about 2-3 players who are good in dribbling and juggling. it was a pure excitement and joyful day in my life. to have fun playing like we never saw the ending of it. i stop playing regularly after i when into matriculation college and after that further study to local university. in malaysia, the first development actually should be polished when the players at 12 years old. that is where the rapid development of skill especially should need to enhance. and after that, its all about technic, teamwork, intelligency on pitch, and maintain the development before its drop when they didn't have proper coaching.
Before that, i used to see premier league as well as our local league. I got newcastle original jersey posted by my uncle from UK. my younger brother got blackburn jersey. this is where i started to have attention of premier league playing style. the international level of premier league fascinated me from the way the team played such as arsenal, aston villa and newcastle and as well as tottenham hotspurs....at university, i discovered chelsea team. i became a fan of its because of their versatility and dedication. During vialli take charge and after that the emerge of zola the great until the triumph of mourinho, and today italian taking charge again. in these 21st century, chelsea has become one of the biggest club in europe alongside manchester united and arsenal. during the rise, perception of people became the factor for me to deeply understand what is courage and determination of winning as much as what chelsea player and management did. it is to win with determination and not because you're already the best. why? i don't like to take a shortcut by choosing the best. most of football fans in malaysia is pure loser so they choose the team which is already the best to avoid humiliation. previously, chelsea fc is not a big club but until now im proud to say chelsea fc is the most strongest team in the world. despite all controversial moment, people hates chelsea, and people love manchester united, chelsea has strive by their own ways and in style. the team is very hardworking, very sporting and shows a good sportmanship and fairplay, play beautiful and very organize. in the end, we came out top and deniying all the controversial. last season shows that we win as a family. chelsea fans in malaysia is about 1:100 different from MU fans, we are less in numbers but we shared a same satisfying moment of winning. i hope this season will be the best season for chelsea to strive again. i love football not only one continent, i like to preview everyleague in the world, discover a new talent, discover how to manage team by playing football manager. now i fully understand how the club work. how is the financial and coaching stuff. it makes me understand football fully and despite having all that knowledge, chelsea is the club that suits my personality. majority of football fans doesn't know about football as much as i did, eventough they criticizing losing teams, it doesn't seems to distract me much, they maybe loves MUFC but they judge football for that particular team only and not giving a damn about others team. in term of knowledge and predicting what happens next?, im way beyond forward in term of what signing the will pursue, what statistic and mind-games they produce, sir alex ferguson maybe is great but for me, its only football. they lose, sir alex blame the player. but at chelsea, when they lose, manager keeping faith all the players. in chelsea, the way of playing is produce by determination of winning, the fight among the best, to have "never-lose" attitudes, and the hardworking. the excitement of football is not only for a team, but for their family and friends. we giving our faith for our players, even they stumble and down, we support them and in the end, the players itself proving and making some improvement. that is chelsea. the team i love.

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

modest and honestman....

being lenient, people will take advantage....

being strict and angry, people get emotionally piss off....

having a plan and ideas, people reject you, ignore you....

having their idea presented, people hear....

being solitude, people ignore you....

trying to be friendly, people ignore you....

going somewhere else, people don't invite you....

you going somewhere else, you invite them, they doesn't want to go with you....

you try to have a talk, they completely ignore you and switch into another conversation that gain his personal interest....

giving an opinion, people don’t listen....

they giving their opinion, people listen....

being good and modest, people don’t see it....

being un-hypocrites, people acknowledges....

being serious, people don’t get excited....

being fun and total bullshit, people get excited....

they talk behind your back, you being patience....

you heard they talk about you, they get angry....

you being honest, people don’t acknowledges you....

people acknowledges them even they not honest at all....

you being natural, people hates you....

they being natural, people love them....

you tell them you’ve done something good, people doesn’t listen you....

they tell them they’ve done something bad, people applause him....

you trying to get to know them, they think you’re a nuisance....

if you accidentally ignore them, they think you’re ego....

you talk about your life, people don’t listen....

they talk about their life, you listen to them....

sometimes you talk about bad thing, they don’t like it....

when they talk about something bad, people like him....

when you being defensive, people tease you....

when they being defensive, everybody else support him....

when you said something perverted at women, they think you’re sex maniac....even you don’t have that intention at all....

when they said something similar, they like him very much....

when they were in group, they form it without you in it....

when they form a group with you inside, they ignore you....

when you doing something, people don’t see you doing it at all....

when they doing something, people think he/she did it all....

even they realize you actually did the job, they actually don’t acknowledges you....

everything you said about your future, they think its total bullshit....

when they talk about their future, they listen and praise....

when you sad and happy, they don’t give a shit....

when they sad and happy, people being around him....

even you read this, you think im a loser....

even you read this, you think im a total bullshit....

even you read this, you close it down and ignore it....

even you read this, you still think im a nuisance....

even you read this, you still doing something bad and people like you....

even you read this, people hates me....

even you read this, did it touch your heart?

even you read this, did you think im distancing myself or you distancing yourself from me?

even you read this, you will ignore me even more....

even you read this, even im trying to be friendly, being honest, giving opinion, giving ideas, sharing things, helping you out, being modest, being lenient and strict, what will you react to me?

what will you react?

what will you react?

all i know is, when im not with you all anymore, you will forget about me instantly....i can guarantee you that....

i will invite, you didn’t come....

with many reason, people who “like” you will accept and support your reason....

if you invite (if you still know me), i will come no matter how far and whatever reason it is....why? you know why....

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Strata Sosial? Siapa punya kerja ini?

Apakah anda ingin menegakkan sekeras-kerasnya bahawa yang miskin tidak boleh bergaul dengan yang kaya? Tidak kira anda miskin atau kaya, golongan yang membentuk satu garisan membahagikan yang kaya dan yang miskin adalah lagi hina dari yang tidak mengetahui apa-apa. Tidakkah anda terfikir untuk menghapuskan pembahagi strata tersebut, tidak bolehkah yang kaya ini tinggal bersebelahan dengan yang miskin? Kita sebagai ahli bijak pandai ini perlu mempunyai pemikiran yang bersolusi. Kaedah yang efisen dan efektif perlu dibentuk dan diterjemahkan kearah praktikaliti. Sebagai contoh membuat rumah yang berbagai-bagai di dalam satu kawasan yang mempunyai banyak golongan dan berkongsi fasiliti yang sama. Sebagai contoh Masjid atau Surau jika dikatakan dalam konteks kecilnya. Kita harus progresif dalam membudayakan sifat toleransi dalam membentuk satu jemaah yang berkerjasama. Tidak kira apa profesion, pangkat, darjat, umur, pendidikan atau lain-lain lagi, semua harus bekerjasama dalam sebuah SISTEM yang berinteraksi sesama sendiri. SISTEM ini harus dibuat dan di implentasikan dalam masyarakat sejagat. Meliputi konteks desa, pekan, bandar atau bandaraya, setiap sistem harus diselaraskan dalam setiap peringkat yang berbeza. Jika desa, ia harus menepati konteks kehidupan di desa. Baru saya teringat satu coretan dari sebuah filem lama iaitu Raja Bersiong (1968) lakonan Ahmad Mahmud yang berbunyi "Sedangkan sampah lagi berguna dari manusia" . Fikirkan sejenak dan cuba olah dari sudut positif.

Monday, March 1, 2010

Analisa Lagu Radiohead "No Suprises"


"No Surprises"

Jika mengikut jalan cerita sebenarnya, ia mengisahkan seorang karakter dalam perjalanan untuk meninggalkan dunia yang penuh dengan dugaan yang dicipta manusia sendiri. Walaupun hidup dalam keadaan yang selesa dan mewah, tetapi mati adalah pilihan utama untuk melepaskan diri dari tekanan.

Bagi pandangan saya, korus lagu berbunyi "no alarm, no suprises" (tiada penggera, tiada kejutan) mempunyai olahan yang universal. Dalam konteks universal itu boleh saya jelaskan bahawa gelanggang politik dunia dan apa jua perbadanan yang memainkan peranan dalam menyelamatkan dunia ini seakan-akan sebuah iklan pandu lalu yang mana ianya satu pesanan singkat. Statisitk dijadikan bukti palsu, penggera yang langsung tidak kedengaran. Walaupun mempunyai pertubuhan ekonomi hijau untuk menyelamatkan manusia dari pemanasan global, ahli-ahli politik ini masih lagi bermain wang untuk kepentingan masing-masing. Satu sistem sosial kearah kehijauan bagaikan pemanis mulut "A handshake of carbon monoxide". Wang didahulukan, rakyat hanya pasang telinga. Oleh itu, pelbagai bencana seperti tsunami di Aceh, ribut Katrina di US, gempa bumi di Haiti, dan Zionis Israel adalah satu olahan penggera kepada kejutan yang tidak langsung untuk mengejutkan manusia dari tidur "Bruises that won't heal" . Impak tersebut masih lagi menjadi luka yang kecil dan lama-kelamaan luka tersebut akan kekal dalam benak mangsa kejadian, bukannya kepada pemerhati. Banyak yang rakyat tidak tahu di sebalik bilik mesyuarat yang dihadiri 10 orang tetamu atau lebih, membincangkan apa dan menganggap setiap resolusi baru itu dapat disampaikan kepada berjuta-huta rakyat. Bagaimanakah kita mendapat kemerdekaan dengan senang? ada atau tidak satu perjanjian antara British dengan Malaya suatu ketika dahulu? bentuk perjanjian apakah itu? membiarkan budaya orang asing menguasai pemikiran generasi sekarang? kita tidak tahu dan tak akan tahu sampai bila-bila. "Silent, silent" . Manusia juga membentuk satu strata sosial yang tidak seimbang, apalagi kesalahan kita? Kita banyak terlepas pandang begitu sahaja. Keselesaan bagaikan kunci kepada sebuah pemikiran yang tidak prolifik. "Such a pretty house, such a pretty garden" . Duduklah mencangkung dan fikirkan baik-baik, di mana anda sekarang. Jika anda mengaku melayu, anda akan tahu dilemanya. Mencari kelemahan adalah lebih baik dari mencari kebaikan. "Please" . Sekali lagi, buka fikiran itu. Kritikan adalah satu proses ke arah kesempurnaan.

Ini lirik lagunya, sila hayati dan fikir-fikirkan.

A heart that's full up like a landfill
A job that slowly kills you
Bruises that won't heal

You look so tired and unhappy
Bring down the government
They don't, they don't speak for us
I'll take a quiet life
A handshake of carbon monoxide

No alarms and no surprises X3
Silent, silent

This is my final fit, my final bellyache with

No alarms and no surprises X3
Please

Such a pretty house, such a pretty garden

No alarms and no surprises (let me out of here)
No alarms and no surprises (let me out of here)
No alarms and no surprises please (let me out of here)

Sunday, February 28, 2010

Gambar menerangkan banyak makna (bukan 1001)

Gambarrajah : makcik menjual sayur-sayur an di Pasar Siti Khadijah
Seperti mana kehidupan seharian kita, kita mudah terlepas pandang, dimana perkara itu statik dan hanya sebuah objek pegun yang cantik, tetapi adakah kita tahu setiap pandangan mengolah persepsi yang berlainan. Dari situ pengolahan dan terjemahan setiap deria kita itu perlu untuk membentuk satu pemikiran yang matang. Dari objek yang menerang satu cerita kepada latar belakang objek yang menerangkan banyak cerita. Dari satu aktiviti manusia kepada kepelbagaian dalam latar belakangnya. Ergonomi tersebut perlu untuk satu tubuh badan yang sempurna dalam penceritaan dan persembahan seni tampak. Bagaikan satu tanggam yang merapatkan manusia pada pemikiran yang lebih meluas. Ini dikatakan "satu gambar=sebuah filem". Perlu kita fahami bahawa ia sebenarnya tidak boleh dikira, 1001 adalah satu slogan yang klise yang menyekat setiap pandangan pada hanya satu perkiraan. Oleh yang demikian, bukalah kelima-lima deria tersebut kepada satu lagi deria yang hebat iaitu "FIKIRAN".

Kembali - 2010 pembuka coretan



Di kala alam siber ini utuh membuatkan kita alpa, baik disini saya mengerjakan sesuatu sebagai penyapu sampah masyarakat, tahun 2010 telah masuk bulan ke-3, banyak memori serta pengalaman di adaptasikan dalam penulisan harian. Di harap permulaan ini adalah seiring dengan peristiwa yang rasanya bagaikan akan berakhir tahun 2012. Menurut firasat saya sendiri, 2012 atau 2020, usaha dan penghambaan jiwa itu penting dalam meneruskan fasa hidup, jadi dikala kesempatan ini, saya akan terus menconteng dinding-dinding hidup serta pemikiran saya dalam ruang muka ini untuk tatapan pembaca. Interaksi media-media yang kehutanan ini akan saya jadikan contoh untuk kefalsafahan saya. Benar kerana tipu, kerana tipu itu benar. Tiada hipokrasi, tiada kompromi, radikal dan pendapat kesejahteraan umum saya.

Sekian, saya mulakan dengan Bismillah.

Tuesday, January 8, 2008

buluh menjadi besi!

saudara, singkatan kepada kata luahan,

saudari, singkatan kepada kata luahan,

peringkat ini sudah tiba,

bahasa sudah ampuh sekali,

dua kali di ampuh oleh anda,

tuntutan mereka adalah kerana wang,

tinggi dengan usia mereka,

mengerjakan keseronokan,

perbahasan bahasa dikotorkan,

contoh ilmu ditelan pemikiran sekarang,

korupsi adalah terang,

ilmu itu ibarat lilin,

kenapa, dan kenapa tidak?

ilmu itu ibarat luas lautan?

permainan singkatan itu dari anda,

ibarat noktah disengajakan,

bagai kalendar dibuang,

tergendala,

dunia dikuasai elit,

wang ditukar ganti dengan bahasa sendiri,

kanak-kanak, remaja, dewasa dan tua,

pergi atau tidak pergi,

buat atau tidak buat,

seperti mati dan hidup,

kerana kita buta dan pekak,

bukan ada olahan tersembunyi,

kerana kita buta dan pekak,

olahan nyata, kerana tiada di tengah,

besi itu besi,

buluh itu buluh.